Finally.
After counting down for almost half a year, it's our long awaited holiday to Redang Island! Yeah!


His flight arrived half an hour earlier than mine.
He surprised me by showing up at the first arrival/boarding gate, waiting for me. Awww.
So happy to see him the first thing after I landed in KL. <3

After our lunch at airport, we check in at Qlassic Hotel. We chose this hotel because it's near to airport as we need to catch an early morning flight the next day. And because it's cheaper(much cheaper than KLIA2 Tune's hotel, lol. =P). There is shuttle service to/from airport - hotel at RM 10 per person one way. It's still way cheaper than taking Grab at RM 65 one way.
The shuttle service from hotel to airport will depart hourly starting from 5 A.M.  You can also request for Taxi from hotel to airport at RM 50. I've read some review regarding the hotel mistakenly book for taxi instead of shuttle service for it's guest, I guess, probably because they've requested at odd timing like 5.30 A.M., since the shuttle service only runs hourly, so they will help you to book taxi instead. Just remember to be clear when you tell the receptionist to book for shuttle service.
The room is acceptably clean and have enough space for two people. At least there is no problem for us to put our luggage bags comfortably.

The Reception

Lobby

A restaurant just beside the hotel lobby.

Toiletries eg. shampoo and shower gel provided

Place to put our luggage. Even hangers are provided. Nice!

Upon searching for food for dinner, I saw someone recommending Chubbies Cafe at CyberJaya. So we decided to give it a try. My sister joined us for dinner too.  =D

Alright, Let's go straight to the main reason why I came back blogging.
There is so much things going on recently and I don't even know where to start.
I guess the main reason is, I know I tend to forget things a little too soon, and I do not want to forget what I have been through this few days.

On 1/10/2016, (Yes date is important because this is my first ever hiking trip which turned out to be so intense one)

We are having a long weekend because Monday 3.10.16 is a public holiday. Yay! Therefore, Zong Lin was planning for some awesome photography plans for us. While doing a bit of the research of places to go, he found that there is a waterfall (Puteri Mandi Waterfall) deep in Mount Jerai, Yan, Gurun, Kedah.

Putri Mandi waterfall photo found from google image.

Do you see the nice flat road inside the photos? Don't get too happy. This was just the beginning. The hiking part is yet to start. Which is why we still have the mood to take photos like this.
Then, the road disappeared and the real hiking starts. There is a sign saying: Puteri Mandi Waterfall- 3km. Sound pretty easy, huh?

the real hiking starts after this portrait was taken.

When we stopped for a short rest, and suddenly i felt something warm and semi-liquid fall from the sky onto my right arm. Yup you should have guessed it already, it was the bird's shit. Euwwwww. Definitely my first time. I quickly take the water out and used up almost half a bottle to wash it off. ZL warned me to save my water but i thought, it's ok, it's only 40min hike right? Not too long also, I think I can survive with my remaining water.
And I definitely regretted it.


After a while, we stopped to take photos of a waterfall (which i do not know the name, could be the bottom part/continuation of Puteri Mandi waterfall?)

Photo of the day taken by me! *proud

Me in action. Photo credit to Zong Lin! Thanks!

When someone said, 'How come I don't get to be inside the photo har?' and this is what he gets.

As we go deeper, the hiking becomes more and more challenging. We actually need to use our hands and legs together to climb up. And even passing through rivers by holding onto a thin rope for support. Like shown below.

Great moment captured by Zong Lin. Perfect composition!

We took a few wrong turns but luckily we found out early that it was not the right road.
The small path becoming more and more slippery, and full of leeches everywhere!
For the first time I saw so many leeches and got bitten by one. Honestly they really are the best dentist in the world, you can't really feel anything even when they are sucking your blood. Despite knowing that it is not painful, it still scares me. Especially when you are looking at it trying to get inside your socks to suck your blood, really sooo geli/ disgusting. Euwwwww. I was stunned and was too afraid to do anything, luckily ZL came for a rescue. He pull it out from my leg with his hand and it tries to stick onto his hand this time. In the end he managed to remove it before being bitten. Pheww.

We were getting more and more tired, and came to a point where we were in dilemma whether to continue hiking up or to give up and go back. Then we met with a few hikers who are also going to the same waterfall.We asked, 'How long is it going to take to reach the waterfall?', to which they replied, perhaps another 45min-1 hour, but we definitely hiked more than half of the journey already. Considering about how little water that we still had left with at that time, we decided to retreat. Water/Hydration really is the most important thing during hiking.

Suddenly i fell down cause the roads are too slippery. Thank God there was some tree branches that stopped me from sliding all the way down. Now that i recall back, it was actually quite scary, if not because of the tree branches, I can't imagine what could be happening to me.
And this was how i got the largest round bruise for the past 27 years (measuring 9cm x 6.5cm, dark purple in colour) on my left outer thigh. Haha.
Let's take it in a positive way, it is a sign of me, being brave enough to step out of my comfort zone to see the world and getting close to nature. Don't you think i deserve a bit of a clap here? =)
*thick face. Well, the truth is i was just too clumsy. Haha!

And finally, we managed to come back safely.

This structure is the starting point of our hike where the tar roads disappeared.

There is some dirt/sand on my leg and i didn't bother to Photoshop it away(for beauty sake), as it is all part of the memory.
I'm so glad I came, and I am really grateful for all these experiences!
Special thanks to Zong Lin and Zong Xun for helping me out during the hike! Thank you so much! =)

p/s: Each of us had one can of 100plus and one big coconut drinks(straight from the coconut) after the hike. Then we realized how dehydrated we were and it was a wise choice to retreat.
Our total hiking time ~3.5hours. (9am-12.30pm).
So the actual hiking time to reach the waterfall should be around 3 hours. (Total 6 hours??) Lol.

Hopefully, one day, we will come back and conquer it all and see the majestic Puteri Mandi waterfall with our own eyes! =)

Hi! Finally i'm back here blogging again, after 2 years.
I guess i was slowly getting so lost in my life, becoming the walking dead. For the past 2 years my life was just about, getting up in the morning to go to work, and coming back to spend the night with my laptop. I had to admit that my passion in life is slowly dying(Oh wait, do I ever have any passion to start with? lol). But things started to change now.

Few months ago, my friend Shue Kang introduced me to his photography friend cum uni-mate/colleague in Kedah, Zong Lin. Since then, they would ask me to join whenever they go for photography trip. Of course i wouldnt say no. Otherwise i would just be rotting in my room only. Haha.

Earlier in May, they brought me to a beautiful landscape in Kubang Semang. It was such a shame that i have been working in Kubang Semang for 2 years + and never knew that there is such beautiful place in the same area.




So beautiful, isn't it?

We actually had to drive through a very narrow and bumpy road passing through the red brick factory. Yea you will definitely need a car wash after the trip. Don't say i didn't warn you. Haha.
Was it worth it? Hell Yeah! =)

With this, marks the beginning of a new hobby!

October was a really busy month for me.
the whole month I was having Paeds Attachment at Hospital Pulau Pinang, which means, i have to drive all the way from Seberang Perai to Penang Island EVERYDAY.
and i have to get up at 5 something in the morning, (yes, it's FIVE FREAKING SOMETHING, when even the sun is still sleeping, crazy? yea i know...), and leave the house around 6.30am, and drive all the way there.

however, i do get my rewards for waking up so early everyday.
and that is, the scenery on Penang Bridge at dawn.
it is soooooo beautiful that i can't even put it down in words.
everyday, the colour of the sky is different, mixture of blue, gray, purple etc.
and i love looking at the lights,
lights from the cars, red colour on the roads towards Penang Island, and yellow colour from the opposite side.
or lights from the buildings, or the bridge.
really, it acts as a mood booster for me everyday, cheers me up and gives me energy to go through the day.
it feels wonderful. <3

i usually reaches the hospital around 7.15am. then i'll go for breakfast, and kick start the day.
by the way, for those of you who don't understand what Paeds attachment is, it basically means i was posted to a specialty in dentistry, which specializes in providing dental care and treatment for those children who are medically compromised, and those who are very uncooperative who need extra special care(which means can't be handled in general dental settings).

Therefore, throughout the whole month there, I've seen a lot of patients who are unable to take care of themselves, including brushing their teeth, due to their condition.
Can u imagine, everyday their carers have to struggle so much, just to get them open their mouth so that they can brush their teeth? some parents even got their finger bitten during the process.
And every time, the parents have to bring them here for check up and review. how much time and effort do they need to put in? some even sitting on a wheelchair.
but still, they are more than willing to do so, and that, is the love of parents. and i always believed, it is the greatest love of all.
really hats off to them, those carers, they love the child no matter what.

Seeing them always make me feel how lucky I am, how lucky we all are.
being fit and healthy and able to function normally(including brushing our own teeth), is already the greatest blessing in life.
you will be surprised, how many of them, could not even do the simplest thing as such,
i used to think cancer patient are really rare, and it's only mentioned in textbooks for the sake of learning. gosh, now i know how wrong i was. they are more than u can imagine.
and it's really sad to see.
for example, i saw a 2 year old suffering from Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia in ward, he is so small size and he has to go through all the pain and sufferings.
and even one case, when we wanted to go and review that patient in ward, we were told that the patient already passed away, due to his cancer. while just few days ago, we still saw him alive.
and that is when u realized, we really should not take life as granted.  

by the way, have u realized that i've been using the word 'carer' instead of 'parents' in paragraphs above? carer means anyone who is taking care of the patient.
and that is because of one small story.
one day, a girl was brought to Peads clinic by her teacher. She is totally blind, and her face is severely deformed(she was born that way), her parents dump her, she was brought up by drinking coffee only everyday, until her family left her in a 'centre'(where there is this group of people volunteered to take care of blind people). then she started to get proper food intake and grow much healthier.
i asked the teacher, 'can she understand what we say?' and she said, 'yes, u can talk to her, she can understand, she is such a smart girl'. and i see love in her eyes. and she is not even related to her in any way.
i feel so touched, they took such good care of a blind girl, took all the trouble to bring her for all the medical and dental check-ups, treat her as their own child, without the girl's family paying a single cent!
FAITH IN HUMANITY restored.
salute to those volunteers. they truly deserves our respect.

ok, back to what i was doing everyday.
in clinic, sometimes we met very uncooperative child, and usually we need 5-6 people to hold them still during the dental procedure. please do not underestimate how strong the child is, based on their age or weight. really, yesterday i was just holding a 4 year old girl's shoulders, others took care of her other parts, and after that i felt like i just finish weight lifting session in gym. or worst.
it may sound cruel to you, but we have no other choice. it was just to provide treatment for them.
good news is, we give balloons to them after the procedure. like a reward. haha.

if u asked me, what is the most memorable experience during my Paeds attachment?
the answer would be, hey, I was bullied by a 6 year old boy!
he is uncooperative, so we tried to give him oral sedation(a drug to make him feel sleepy) so he cant resist while we provide the treatment for him.
he was feeling dizzy but he refused to sleep. instead, he forced me to read out his storybook to him.
some more he demanded certain pages to be read in english, some in mandarin... LOL!
i was feeling embarassed, because we were in specialist's office that time.
at first i was hesitant, then he merajuk, insisted i read it out for him.
and he was toooooo cute for me to say no.
so that was the 1st time i tell a bed-time story to a kid.
funny thing is, his mom thinks it's cute and i saw her recording it. ohhh myyyy.... pls dont post in fb... i surely look so dumb. thank god i was wearing mask. i dont think anyone could recognize me. lol.
even though in the end he still didnt fall asleep, well, he wakes up during the procedure and started fighting. so we have to hold his body parts. lol.
but still, he is really very cute lah! <3
i started to miss him already.

through out the whole month there, i saw a lot of cute kids. they are so adorable...
i kinda love treating them and trying to persuade them to brush their teeth properly.
now i cant wait to have my own baby! hahaha!

overall, i really learnt a lot during this attachment.
my communication skills with patients has definitely improved(last time i was scared to treat kids).
it's time to leave and go bk to KPSJ.
such a mixed feeling again.
i thk i will miss... the Pg Bridge view, the cute kids, and the infection control over thr.
i wont miss the traffic jam part though.
such a relieved now i dont need to drive so far everyday anymore. some more everyday paying for tol. haha.

alright, let me pack my mixed feeling up, and back to normal clinic life.
at least, from now onwards, i can hv extra 1 hr sleep everyday. yay! =D

我相信，每件事，从不同的角度看，就会有不一样的看法。
很多人都认为，我太天真太单纯（蠢），不知人间险恶，
我却宁愿相信，这世界还是美好的。

当别人让你去撞墙，
你可以说，为什么他明明知道了，还不提醒我，还要看着我撞上去？
分明是想靠害，想落井下石。

但是，我会选择，往另一方面想。
或许，他是想让你从错误中学习。
玉不琢不成器，
很多时候，人都是要撞到了，跌倒了，才会吸取教训，才会成长。
这，也是学习的一部分。

与其，以小人之心度君子之腹，
一直觉得身边的人，想怎样怎样害你欺负你利用你，
然后搞得自己心神不宁充满怨恨，对人失去信任，天天告诉自己防人之心不可无，
搞得自己活得那么累，这又是何必呢？

一念之差，往往，造成的伤害，还更大。

我宁愿，把事都往好的方面去想，把身边的人，都当成大好人。
太傻 太天真 太不切实际了吗？
但是，至少，我活得，比较快乐。

别觉得别人在利用你，我觉得，能帮助他人，是值得高兴的。
别觉得别人在骂你，其实他们可以选择不浪费时间浪费力气去念你的。
别人愿意指点你，是好事。

最重要就是，别把别人对你的好，当理所当然。
当别人对你好，要心存感激，因为他们不是义务一定要对你好的。

很多人喜欢把东西复杂化，
我却喜欢大事化小，小事化无。
我不明白，为什么要把小事弄大？搞得大家都很累。
不是不知道，有时候，别人是在shoot你，
我的反应通常都是开开玩笑装傻就混过去。
只是觉得，何必为了小事伤和气？
为何不讲了就算，风一吹，什么都不记得了，多好？
因为珍惜这段友谊，所以可以忍受，可以告诉自己别太在意（虽然被射真的不好受），仍然当对方是朋友。
把事情闹大弄得满都是火药味，该怎么收拾？
我真的不知道。

所以，我还是觉得，当个单细胞，最幸福。

别人笑我太疯癫，
我笑他人看不穿。

星期一
我，冠贤，米姐一起负责去maktab帮即将成为老师的学生们做dental check up + dental treatment.
看着二十三岁的他们，就好像当年的我们，那么天真那么清纯。
原来，自己已经不再是学生了。忽然觉得自己很老了。
跟冠贤和米姐说，我觉得自己比他们老多了，冠贤立即撇清说，那是你老罢了啊，我觉得我跟他们一样。
哈哈哈哈哈！





星期二
这几天都觉得心情很郁闷，大概又是PMS吧。
因为他们的一句话，竟然失眠了。
虽然说，他们可能只是随口说说，是我over react想太多了，
但是那不被信任的感觉，压得我，喘不过气。
可能是太在乎了吧，
也可能，是PMS作祟。


星期三
Denture day + Jamuan Raya
食物真的蛮好吃的！有鸡饭，叻沙，椰子布丁。。。
clinic竟然在这个时候停电！害我们得在黑暗中享用这一餐。

下午，做完假牙后，跟lakshmi坐在一旁讲心事。
讲了出来，果然感觉好多了。
她也觉得是我PMS想太多了。
我，松了一口气。

终于有了一张我们KPKS officers的全体照。
超喜欢！虽然我的眼睛看起来很单很小，但是大家都在一起的感觉，很棒！








星期四
晴天霹雳！
这天来了，我最最最害怕听到的消息。
由于clinic装修，下个月起，我们将会被派去不同的地方上班。
更糟的是，别的地方也已经有太多dental officer了，硬硬被派去，也不知道去那里该做什么才好，或许，也是上班等下班，但是却少了那几个每次和我一起吹水的家伙。
我不要我不要我不要！

我承认，我是很难找到ngam key的朋友的。
很难得，在这里的人，和我一拍即合。
我已经习惯了，每一天和他们一起的感觉。
很喜欢大家一起吵吵闹闹嘻嘻哈哈的感觉。
也习惯了，装小（因为在这里年级最小的是我），依赖着大家。

我讨厌改变，讨厌离开自己的comfort zone，讨厌要重新适应，重新认识人。
认识人不难，难是难在，要找到同样channel的人不容易。
就像西兰哥说的，这个clinic有家的感觉，
就算以后去其他地方做attachment，最终都是迫不及待的想回来这里。
这一份归属感，是无法被替代的。

真的没想到，那么快就要离开这里，离开大家。
真的很不舍得很不舍得很不舍得大家。
我知道我一定会很想念很想念大家的。
想念，随和却也有自己原则的YM（二姐），
想念，天天念我们，嘴巴停不下来的曾大哥，
想念，每次陪我去打包午餐的冠贤哥，
想念，每次和我一起讨论分享的米姐。

说是说，这次的变动只是暂时性的，等装修好了，或许大家又可以回来团聚了。
但是，根据以往的惯例，被调出去的，通常都回不来。
衷心祈祷，我们能打破惯例，重新一起回来，大大声地喊：YM，我回来了！

得知这个消息后，clinic里 一片片愁云满布，全部人都很emo，伤心，不舍。

晚上，又睡不着了。想着想着，最后竟然哭了。
奇怪，我哭点明明就不低啊。
不过，哭出来了，反而觉得relieved，胸口的郁闷也比较少了。
果然，痛快地哭一场，比闷在心里，好过。


星期五
一早，看到冠贤竟然完全换了发型，剪了超短的头发。
我一开口就问，你是不是受太大的刺激了？
哈哈。
今天，大家的心情都比较平复了。开始像往常一样说说笑笑了。
是啊。与其愁眉苦脸的过，不如开开心心地珍惜和大家在一起的日子。
午餐，我们也临时决定要一起去吃pizza.

听到了，他说：你们离开这里以后，我没有人可以欺负，一定很寂寞。
之前我们一直问他，万一我们离开了，他会不会想念我们。
他嘴硬地说，你傻的，你们没有来之前，我都是酱的啦。世界上没有人不能没有谁。

但是，今天听他酱讲，相信他一定会想念我们的。哈哈！
而且，他也叮嘱我们，如果在外面被欺负了，可以告诉他。
其实，他也蛮关心我们的嘛。

我相信，我们一定会一起再回来KPKS的！！！

好久没update了。
太懒惰了。懒得去想，懒得去写，
天天过着得过且过的日子。
得过且过，也没什么不好。
一直相信着，知足常乐的道理。
日子虽然平凡，却也算是无忧无虑的。
老实说，我也蛮享受这种生活的。
虽然是显了一点（好吧，不只一点），因为clinic现在在装修，不能看病人，
所以我们这几个就变成闲人了，每天在clinic里摇脚吹水，等放工。
哈哈哈。日子是不是很写意呢？
最近胖了，因为马来同事天天轮流带糕饼来请大家吃。
真的太难抗拒了！
控制不了的手一直不停的伸过去拿来吃，他们一直看住我吃一直笑我，
他们应该是被我这个吃不停的能力给吓倒了。哈哈哈！
算了，吃了才有力气减肥嘛。。。

常常在想，自己是多么幸运，
被派到这件clinic，
真的很喜欢这里的人，相处也很融洽，
甚至连monday blue都不会有，因为每天都很期待去上班和他们吹水。
人家说，大笑就是最好的运动。
看来我连运动都可以省了。哈哈！

那天，曾大哥带了一本陈峰的书《大城心事》，看他在忙，我又太无聊，就偷偷拿来看。
太好看了，看得很入神，忽然他就站在我旁边，
反应不过来，心虚地反射性盖起来，结果被他当场捉到。哈哈哈！XP

陈峰的观念是，长痛不如短痛，明知道那段感情是有问题的，就应该当机立断，女生常常会因为不舍得那份感情而继续拖拖拉拉下去，那样只会痛苦一辈子。
常常因为付出了多年的青春和感情，而不舍得，最后悲剧收场。
这就是女人的弱点。

喜欢陈峰的锋利的用词，一针见血的犀利，短短几句话，就看懂你的人，明白你的困境，
再用直接不修饰的话给人当头棒喝，让人从谜团中清醒，也难怪那么多人call in去让他骂，过后还要说谢谢。

他们一直怂恿我call in去，哈哈哈，听起来好像很好玩，但是我的烦恼跟其他人比起来根本就不算什么。像我酱吃饱睡，睡饱吃的人，哪会有什么烦恼呢？
哈哈哈！

friday evening, while i was sitting on Lakshmi's car, on our way to Queensbay for a long awaited shopping trip, suddenly i felt my phone vibrating. i was shocked, looking at the 3 missed calls, from a very familiar person. so i called him bk immediately, and the first sentence he shouted: 'walao do u know i called u until my hp is going to burst?'. haha! then he asked me to go dinner together, he was at BM, the town where i am staying.

The snow glows white on the mountain tonight
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation, and it looks like I'm the Queen
The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside
Couldn't keep it in; heaven knows I tried

Don't let them in
Don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal
Don't feel
Don't let them know
Well, now they know

Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door
I don't care what they're going to say
Let the storm rage on
The cold never bothered me anyway

It's funny how some distance makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me can't get to me at all
It's time to see what I can do
To test the limits and break through
No right, no wrong
No rules for me...I'm free

2013 has been a very eventful year for me.
the last few months as a final year BDS student.
tried my best to enjoy it as a student. we all know how everyone says that student life is always the best and is what you will miss when u started working.
all the hangout sessions, short 'getaway trip' to Queensbay and became a shopaholic.


the message that always made my day, is the one that asked me to go out and have some nice food. and by nice food i mean anything other than AIMST Cafe food. hahaha!
i would really like to thank one person here, she is the one who always keep me companied, be my driver, and taught me so much in life. sometimes, i feel, she trusted me more than i trust myself.
and it's awesome to have a friend like this. <3
she is the first person ever dare to let me drive her car (eventhough the last time i drove was about 5 years back during my driving test!), and patiently taught me about driving and parking, even though i was really noob. haha.
we always do dumb things together. like, playing with our shadows at night, walking round the campus after dinner, and always craved for chatime and this is our favourite pic taken there.

the best picture ever! =D the best pic is not the one when u wore the prettiest dress nor the best make up, it is when you have the best natural laugh on ur face, and that, is the best make up one could ever wear.

and i will never forget about how we fight together for finals. everyday same routine with waking up, after having lunch together, we will study together in her beautifully decorated room and with her collections of textbook, i felt like we were studying in a mini library, with air-con. and it really did, make our exam preparations less shitty. hahaha. i love the 'galaxy' in her room, and i remembered tearing them down one by one.

can u see the stars? well, thats only a small part of her galaxy. haha!

the first time we hugged, was before i get inside the taxi which headed to airport.
she told me not to cry, and i was managed to hold my tears temporarily, until the taxi leave the place where i have been living for 5 years. then, my tears just flushed down like the waterfalls, as i knew i would really miss this place, miss our memories together, and miss my dearest friends here.
i knew, after this, we all will be starting our life somewhere else, writing different stories.
we might not have many chances to meet each other again. it might not be the same anymore.
but i ll miss you.
thank you for everything! =)

together we laugh

AIMST BDS Batch 4

next, July-August, it was Europe and UK trip. it was really great and i believe i have said enough about it in my previous posts. spent a lot of money though. so it's time to start saving!!!

Tower Bridge, UK

The Rialto Bridge, Venice

Musee Du Louvre, Paris

Sept- fly to kl and register with MDC at Putrajaya.

Oct- My Convocation. one of the greatest event of my life so far. =)





Dec: When the new chapter begins.
- PTM.

5.2 group <3

- lapor diri at 9 Dec 2013. my working life officially started! ^^

i actually have a lot to tell about my working life. but i am too lazy to type it out.
all i could say is, it is very different from uni life.
still learning to adapt to it. speed means almost everything.
gone are the days where we spent few hours in doing treatment for single procedure for ONE patient.
that does not exist in working life anymore.
now if u do it fast, ur boss love you, ur assistants love you, and your patients love you, see?
and u felt terrible if u were doing it too slow, as there are not enough dental chairs, and many patients are waiting outside just because you are slow. =(
and the type of stress where you are so scared to extract teeth at about 4.30pm because if u fractured it, it means everyone won't get to go home at 5pm, and i bet you will be secretly hated. arghh.

finally understands the feeling of waiting to go home at 5pm! u just wish u could make the clock moves faster by staring at it. hahaha!
and the punch card system is so... interesting. hahaha.
as expected, this noobie made some really funny mistakes, like silap punch, lupa punch. LOL! my colleagues were laughing at me when they saw my card. hahaha.

FINALLY, i have a chance to blog now.

yes. i do admit that i was being anti-social for these few months.
because i needed time. for my family, and for myself.
spent time reading some books.
and my favourite book is When I was a kid, by Cheeming Boey.
you know you really love that book when you were having mixed feeling while reading it, you are all excited and cant wait to finish reading it but at the same time you keep telling yourself, no! and you were reading it like really slowly because you don't want to finish reading it too soon. arghhh! what a dilemma! >.<
anyway, i finished it. and i couldnt find book2! please please please do let me know if you know where to get it ok?
'to the forgotten child in all of us'.
i really think this is a book that everyone should have! i am gonna keep it and show the next generation so they would know about what kids in 80-90s do back then, when we didn't have Ipad/Iphone or whatever touch screen-thingy.
honestly, it's sad to see how technology destroys communication nowadays.
very often you'll see people sitting together but their focus is all on their smartphones.
'then what's the point of hanging out together when all you do is playing with your own phones?'
well, let's not get into serious discussion here.

finally, i wanted to go out. out of my house.
and i am really lucky to know you.
you are like my genie who grant all my wishes, no matter how random they are.
thanks for being there and pull me out of depression.
once the sight of beach and sea comes in, the word 'depression' just magically disappeared! yay! ^^



walking on the sand with bare feets, feeling the warmth of seawater, listening to the waves,
watching small crabs/hermit crabs?, and my first time catching them and hold them in my palm. awesome!
haha.

Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
And you let her go 

Staring at the bottom of your glass 
Hoping one day you'll make a dream last 
But dreams come slow and they go so fast 
You see her when you close your eyes 
Maybe one day you'll understand why 
Everything you touch surely dies 

But you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 

Staring at the ceiling in the dark 
Same old empty feeling in your heart 
'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fast 
Well you see her when you fall asleep 
But never to touch and never to keep 
'Cause you loved her too much and you dived in too deep 

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low 
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low 
Only hate the road when you're missing home 
Only know you love her when you let her go 
And you let her go

07.11.2013(Thursday)
i finally made up my mind. decided to go to Popular to get 2 things.
a very last minute decision to buy the ticket for Richard Clayderman's live concert, which is on the next day.
thank god there are still tickets available.
and thanks to kad siswa, i got to buy it with student price, which is only rm153! cool! if not, the ticket minimum will cost about rm 291 upto about 900. yeah. it's that expensive.
this is the 1st time i am buying ticket for a concert. and i'm glad it's for Richard Clayderman. ;)
and my name was printed on the ticket! so cool! hahaha. excuse me for being so excited. but yay!



next, i asked for the book, When I was a kid, by Cheeming Boey, and they told me it's out of stock!
WHAT?!!! i was stunned for awhile. then i keep asking them when will new stock arrives, where else can i get the book etc... but they just told me it's out of stock everywhere. >.<
felt disappointed and sad but happy at the same time. great job Mr. Boey! ur books are all sold out in Kota Kinabalu, and they said, a lot of people are asking for it too! woo~!!! soooo proud of u!
anyway, i really hope there will be new stock reaching soon!

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08.11.2013 (Friday)
this day is definitely a night to remember, because it is the first time seeing Richard Clayderman in real world!
we were in the same ballroom, breathing in the same air!
the 1st time i see such a great talented pianist LIVE performances.
it was really amazing!
you said, 'My life, is like a love story, with the piano'.
indeed, it is the most romantic and touching love story.
it felt like u understand her so much. u know exactly how to touch her in the most gentle and beautiful way, and give birth to so many incredible love songs.
even after all these years, the passion that you have for her, never ceases. <3
love listening to you talking in French, even though i couldnt understand a thing.
and suddenly, i realized, playing piano is not about pressing the exact note in a perfect way, it is the feeling and soul that u gave to that song.
my favourite songs of the night would be: Coup de Coeur, Ballade pour Adeline, Titanic, You Raise Me Up.

thank you for the wonderful performances.
it was the most worthy rm153 that i have spent!
this opportunity is really once in a blue moon. i am glad i didnt let it flip passed my fingers. =)
you are amazing! <3

for the past whole week, i was 'fighting' with my own hormone. well, to be exact, i was screwed by my own hormone. yea you are right. pms. some girls get easily irritated or angry, while i get depressed and sad every freaking time. (while i actually have nothing to be really depressed of)